REVELATION - Awareness Training

In responding to M. Jones last night I became aware of a social dysfunction that I possess. In a strange way I reject people without even knowing it. That is why most people's first opinion of me is either "Jerk" or "Elitist" (I never understood this perception). It is a true handicap such as a speech impediment not in the sense that it is socially unacceptable but in the sense that it does make social communication a little more difficult than someone without the impediment.

I DON'T SEE SMALL STUFF !!! You may say "BIG DEAL" what is the problem with that. Well it can be a big deal in a social setting. People (especially women) communicate in subtle ways. When those subtle signals are ignored by someone than that person is filed under jerk or elitist automatically. The poor slob never saw that he had dismissed someones signal and would never do that on purpose but that doesn't negate the offence.

I knew I had this small stuff problem all my life but never knew why until a standard shrinkology test confirmed the cause. Brain wiring from birth that can't be fixed. But maybe it can be trained a little. I really never thought of it as a problem except in my marriage (You never notice my hair, new dress, new curtains, etc.). Now I see it ranges into all my social ventures.

Awareness Training: One more thing for my to-do list (any suggestions?).